Merritt Memories

For the longest time I have been dropping hints to my significant other that I want a baby. For some reason he has ignored them or just flat out told me no. This has always left me a little perturbed. Why? Why can't we have another baby? It's not like it will impact us that much. Once you have three, you can have 12, right? I realized today I can't have any more kids. Not because I physically can't, but emotionally I think I may not survive. I won't be the mom I want to be if I were to add one more little bundle of joy to the family. I do a little home Halloween party for the kids every year, just us. As I was getting things organized for tomorrow, it took me back 10 years when my boys were all I had. We did so many fun things together. I really enjoyed being a mom back then. Not that I don't now, it's just different. My kids are all different ages, like totally different things. Stresses are different. I feel I'm pulled in a billion directions to satisf...

it's OVERRATED!! Who cares if the dog came running through the house muddy paws and all from the days snow storm? Does it really matter that you only accomplished one goal set for the day? It's not that bad that you've gained 2 lbs back, it could be all 10! And so what if you were making dessert and accidentally stuck it under the running water. Grab a paper towel and soak up the extra water, that's what they're for. I feel a lot better when I keep things in perspective. Tomorrow's another day, plenty more to try again!

Last week as we we were getting use to the idea of Dustin graduating and preparing for this change in our lives, Heavenly Father decided to throw another curve ball our way. We knew that our ward was due for a bishopric change and that it would be coming soon. Dustin was teased that he would be the new bishop, we just laughed it off thinking, "yeah, right!" Well, we were half right. He isn't the new bishop, but he is now the 2nd counselor. Dustin did say he kind of had an idea that his calling would change, but he thought starting a new job might change things. He was wrong. After the first initial shock, and a little whining, we have decided this is such a great blessing and protection for Dustin. The environment at work isn't ideal. Yes we live in UT, but unfortunately there is a lot of swearing and crude behavior in this profession. I was worried, and warned at the spouses briefing, this could come home with him. We feel by Dustin having this calling it gives him a...

It's official!! Dustin graduated from the academy yesterday, Oct. 21st. We are so excited for him. He is a little nervous to start a whole new career, but I know he'll do fine. Proof? How about this: He won the Outstanding Achiever's Award for his class. To figure out who would win this award they took all their scores in EVERY category and averaged them out. He won! I'm so proud of him, but not surprised. He always excels at everything he does! I had a spouse's course (briefing in police talk). It was helpful and informing. They just help you to understand that your spouse will change in their new profession. To be aware and educate us how to help with everything they will be experiencing. I had to laugh when they mentioned our husband's will start wanting to be in control of everything. I thought, huh? Been there done that, still doing it! Guess he was always meant to be a cop. The kids were so proud too! I can't leave them out. Kate kept informing EVERYBO...

I've been wanting to get caught up on my strides toward a life without fear. However, time is so limited lately, and interruptions are unending. It doesn't quite cooperate with me. When I decided to take the steps of changing what needs to be changed and becoming who I wanted to be, I recognized that it wouldn't happen over night. I first had to admit to myself and identify my weaknesses. And, of course, I chose to start with those simple daily annoyances, like fruit. I don't know why I chose that first. Maybe the teasing and strange looks I always got when someone found out about my dislike for it? Maybe something deeper. I, like maybe some of you, have a tendency to let others "take the wheel." I'm pretty laid back and easy going. Happy just to be on this journey, enjoying the scenery, content watching others take opportunities to better themselves. Well, for the first time in EVER , I want to drive! Fruit is just the tip of the iceberg! The next thing o...

Grace was baptized on October 10, 2009. She was so excited. We started getting a countdown at 5 days. She would wake up and say, "Only __ days until I'm baptized." I was happy that she was so excited. We had many family members in attendance. We missed those who weren't there, but know and understand traveling is hard (been there done that). My mom, grandma, and sisters,Robyn & Lea Ann and her 5 boys, came up from Las Vegas. Dustin's parents, and brother and sisters, Spencer, Wendy, Taryn, and Shandi and their families were there as well. Our friends Matt and Camille were there too and her church leaders! Grace was so giggly in the font. She said she felt like she was going to float away. She only had to be "dunked" once, she did it perfect. It was neat to be there right after she was baptized. When the boys have done it, Dustin was the one to help them after. It was fun to be the one to help her and talk about her experience. I told her how lucky sh...

Today I was making brownies for the kids. They always like to help, so I let them. This time Kate and Bec were helping me. I had put everything in and Kate whispered, "Mom, what's the secret ingredient?" I asked, "Oh, do we need one?" She nodded her head yes. So I thought for a moment and said, "Love. Love is our secret ingredient. I'm going to put some in." I started blowing kisses into the batter and said, "Would you each like to add some love to our brownies?" They giggled with excitement and began blowing kisses too. We poured the batter into the pan and Kate said, "Mom, this is our secret. We can't let anyone know that we put love into the brownies, okay?" I agreed. I wouldn't dare spoil that surprise! I'm sure they'll be the BEST brownies ever!