Proposal

My son, Aaron, proposed to his girlfriend, Angel, on Monday, August 13th. He came home and didn't say a word to us! We got a text the next afternoon telling us that he was engaged...I was mad! Mad about the whole situation, yes. But more so that he chose to tell me through a text message. If you get engaged, you dang better tell your mother in person!

My Aaron suffers silently from anxiety. As a child it manifested in forms of OCD. But once a teenager, it crippled him from speaking and interacting with others. He wouldn't talk to people unless they spoke first. And then it would be one word answers. He hated going into the cafeteria because it was too overwhelming for him. He only started his junior year because I basically threatened him. I know that doesn't sound very motherly, but sometimes we have to do hard things and what was I teaching him by allowing him to always run away. He went into the cafeteria and he found friends and never had an issue after that! 

So. was I really surprised that he text us? No, but I wanted to think we earned a little more than that. 

Anyway, I'm done being mad. Now, I'm just scared for the both of them. They just graduated high school! I was hoping he would go off to college, find out what he wanted to make of his life, and accomplish it. Sure, marriage was in there somewhere, but this came too early for me. I have also come to realize I am mourning my plans for Aaron. I am slowly getting excited for him. I see how happy he is. And how comfortable he is with Angel. That is a good thing. So, it may not be what i envisioned for my son, but i do know he is here to learn for himself and that his journey is absolutely his own. My job is to be by his side cheering him on and helping him when I'm needed. It's been a hard lesson to learn. I had my choices to make my life what I wanted. He definitely has the same right!

Congratulations, Aaron and Angel!

First thing on my list will be to get a better picture! Haha!