Merritt Memories

 Brutten's been so excited for this birthday party! He has taken a liking to Star Wars. He couldn't wait to have a star wars birthday party. I wasn't sure how I'd pull one off. But it worked out! It was complete with decorating storm trooper cupcakes, a Storm Trooper Stomp, A Stoem Trooper Po, and a light saber war! I still remeber the feelings that overcame me when I found out we were having baby number 6. I was so confused and upset. Dustin almost passed out! But I also remember the feelings I had holding him for the first time. Our Little Britten. Everything was ok. My life was complete and even filled with more love. He is our "Baby". Our only child that has pushed every limit possible. But he is the most sweet boy. He tells me every night how beautiful I am, and that we are the best parents. He is kind, mouthy, athletic, impulsive, shy.  Happy Birthday Britten!! We love you! Britten's Favorites: color-red and blue food- cheicken and rice show- FGTeeVe...

  I seriously can't believe I have a 22 year-old! Ryan is living his best life. He's currently living with a couple mission companions and going to school. He works in the valley as well. We miss haivng him with us, but I know he was super anxious to be back on his own.  Here's Ryan's Favorites: color- green food- pizza sport- football hobby-video games subject in school- computer science animal- narwhal, the jedi of the sea TV show- The Mandelorian cartoon-Sword Art What would you do with $1M dollars? Pay off my parents' mortgage, buy a house, build a nice computer and an awesome gaming room, adopt a pet kangaroo If you could have anything, what would it be? Be a video game developer, run my own company Keep reaching those goals, Ryan! We love you!! 

2020 coming at me!  I say every year, "This will be the best one yet!" I'm donr telling myself that. I'm 43 years old. And everyone of those years has made me who I am. I've had joys, sadness, victories, failures...I've experineced it all. As much as I've hated the hard stuff, I'm grateful for it. So bring on the joy, bring on the crap! I'm just grateful to be alive and have the opportunity. I spent the last year working on my mental health. Anxiety has been high! At times, I didn't feel like I'd ever be enough. I'm happy to say by the endi if this year, even though I still wake up at 4 am anxious, our minds are so powerful! We are what we tell ourselves. My antra all last year, " You are capable. You are confident. you will succeed!" I most likely will have to repeat it to myself the rest of my life. But, i believe it! My word for the New Year: capable.  Happy New Year!!